Wednesday, June 30, 2004
linkage

ok the new journal is finally done. many props to samantha for the uber-rad layout. the new link to my journal is livejournal. much love to all you blogdrivers forever :-* i'll miss you dearly!


Posted at 07:24 pm by brokendreamz
PaRtIr M'aImE  

Tuesday, June 29, 2004
dentists SUCK!

rarr. today was ok i guess. woke up around 9:30 to grandma banging on my door. she needed to go to the mall to get a new garage door opener and needed me to drive her -- so we went tanning around 10 and then drove over to sears. omgosh. i dont think i have ever been so scared in my entire life -- the rain was coming down sooo hard, and tehre was  a lot of traffic on 820.. but hey, im still alive rite? went to target after sears.. n i looked around for a while. got the bathing suit ive been wanting for a while-- im going to the lake with jon and his family and sean and his family for the 4th of july, so i needed a new bathing suit for that ((actually, just a new bathing suit.. i havnt had a new one since last year)) its a two piece and its really really cute.. like these green flower looking things. anyways, went home for a little while n got sum r & r, and then had to go the dentist. gosh, i hate dentists. i swear, i brush my teeth, but today i had to get FOUR fillings.. 3 on my left side ((Because the dum brackets from my braces get food stuck in them)) and 1 on my right side. . all on the top. i got 6 shots today in my mouth-- i must say thats a record breaker for ya, and the doctor didnt like how i was all squirmy, so he gave me the laughing gas. my mouth was definately sore for FOUR HOURS! it was that weird feeling.. ya noe.. the one where your mouth litterally feels like its asleep. rarr. i hate that feeling. camp home n sat around -- watched the real world marathon cuz i had nothing better to do.

today or 2morrow is going to be the last time i write in here. my friend is making me a really kool layout for my livejournal-- cuz blogdrive.com SUX.. you cant have cool pictures or anything on here for the backround or anything.. and that just aint kool.. when i find out the link to my livejournal i'll post it on here, and then it's goodbye to blogdrive. ::sigh::

well, i dont really feel all that well, and i'd much rather be laying down then writing in here.

much love forever.

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here are only two times

I
  want  to   be  with  you
n
ow and forever

.
. .Raleigh and Jon. . .
©


Posted at 11:20 pm by brokendreamz
PaRtIr M'aImE  

Monday, June 28, 2004
blah. camp. ick.

ok so uh.. camp was good. 2 weeks is way too long to be gone tho. my cuzins and i got along good, but their house is such a change from my house. we had to go to church EVERY SINGLE DAY the first week i was there, i went went a few days the second week i was there. i guess it was kool that my aunt cooks dinner every night, considering how my dinners usually consist of cereal or whatever else is lying around the house. the down part of having home-made dinners every night -- me and my cuzin steph had to do the dishes everyday. it was also kinda hectic.. without me and my grandma, there were already 6 people living in that house.. so add two.. 8 people, 3 bedrooms. my cuzin and i slept downstairs in the living room on blow-up matresses for the whole 2 weeks.. ick that thing hurt my back like no other! camp was ok i guess.. i mean, there were 9 kids in our group compared to last years measly FIVE! im really happy to be home tho.. jon and christina came with my mom to pick me up from the airport. AwWw how sweet! my plane was supposed to get in at 12:11 ((yes, in the middle of the night)) but it was late and didnt get in till about.. 12:45 or so-- so we didnt get home from dropping jon off till around 1:45 or so.

saturday was warped tour. HOLY FREAKIN POO! it was sooo much fun! it was kinda yucky cuz it was raining all day, but i had my hair in braids so i didnt have to worry about the friz-factor. we got to meet lots and lots of bands-- story of the year, the erks, from first to last, straight outta junior high, stretch armstrong, the f-ups, and tons tons more. ahh it was like.. the best day i've had in a long long time! jons mom picked us up from the concert around 8:30 and we all went to chili's. yummy yummy ! spent the night with christina saturday night. while we were showin him all of the kool stuff we got ((including TROJANS!)) her dad freaked out when he found sum P.E.T.A. stickers. they are the people that are against eating meat and stuff like that-- and her dad said that they terrorize meat eaters. we got this little booklet thing with stuff about peta, and it really grossed me out to read some of the stuff that we eat.. like.. cows.. that are tortured just we can eat them. i dunno-- it was that stuff that really makes you think. i dont think i would be able to give up meat tho.. i like chicken too much!

spent sunday with dad and christina. he picked us up about 1 and we all went to CiCi's ((yummy in my tummy!)) then we all went to wal-mart cuz dad needed.. well i dont remember what he needed, but we went. christina and i just stayed back in the music section the entire time.. fun stuff! im mad tho.. wal-mart doesnt have the Muse cd.. grr on them. since dad's still trying hopelessly to make me a good driver, i got to drive all the way to lewisville to look at sum boats. im UBER-excited! dad found a boat that he really, really really likes.. and i like it too.. and he says that if they have it for another week or two, he's gonna buy it!!!! that would be sooo exciting.. ive always wanted a boat! dropped Christina off and then i went to the grocery store w/ grandma. im on this new diet and youre supposed to lose like.. 10 pounds in 3 days.. EATING! lol but you have to eat nasty stuff.. like broccoli and cauliflower and even COTTAGE CHEESE! ew.. but im supposed to try it out-- the 4th of july is sunday, and im going to the lake with Jon and his family-- just like last 4th of july, so i wanna look good in a bathing suit. woo hoo, go me!

today was good i guess-- for sum reason i woke up about 8:45 -- way too early for summer-time. ate my breakfast that consisted of 1 grapefruit and a piece of toast w/ peanut butter on it ((thats what the diet says)) watched tv for a while, and then jon came over for about 45 minutes-- we sat around and watched tv, and then he had to go back to skool. durn. got ready, and then went to pick christina up. Went to the gym, got our work out on, and then went to half price books to get sum books for my dumb summer reading. ick. they only had one of em-- so for the next few weeks, i get to read Things Fall Apart. yuck. i hate reading for skool..

well, im gonna go watch tv or sumthin.. cuz christina is out to eat w/ her dad-- but yay.. she's comin over when she gets home!

u            s
h            g            &
k         xoxo         z
i                s
s

t
here are only two times

I
  want  to   be  with  you
n
ow and forever

.
. .Raleigh and Jon. . .
©



Posted at 04:29 pm by brokendreamz
MoN aMoUr (1)  

Friday, June 11, 2004
my flight got cancelled tonight. im bored.

(1) What is your name? raleigh irene


(2) Are you happy with it?  i HATE it


(3) Are you named after anyone? my first name comes from the combination of my dads name and moms best friends name ((ray and leigh)) so they took out the y in ray and got Raleigh. my middle name is grandmas first name

(5) Your screenname: theskyeizfalling


(6) Would you name a child of yours after you? nope


(7) Then what would you name your children? alexis mckenzie, mckayla ryan, and sumthing that has the initials J.D.H. ((its a tradition in jons family))


(8) If you were born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name be? mom says "Michael"


(9) If you could switch names with a friend, who would that be? aspen


(10) Are there any mispronounciations/typos that people do with your name constantly?  omgosh. all the freaking time. rolly, rylee,anything.. i mean, is it really that hard to pronouce RALEIGH? ((raw-lee))

(11) Would you drop your last name if you became famous? hoo noes.



BASICS
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(12) Your gender:
Female

(14) Single? i have a boyfriend.. 

(15) Want to be single?  no

(16) Your birthdate: april 7th

(17) Your age: 15

(18) Age you act: much younger. but i can be mature when i need to be

(19) Age you wish you were: 26 cuz you can do anything

(20) Your height: 5'3 according to my last doctors check-up

(21) The color of your eyes: honey brown with a dark brown ring around them.

(22) Happy with it? Yes

(23) The color of your hair: honey brown with natural red highlights and FAKE blonde highlights :)

(24) Happy with it? not at the moment.. i need a touch up

(25) Left/right/ambidextrous? rightie

(26) Your living arrangement? mom and grandma. dad every other weekend/whenever i get around to it

(27) Your family: immediate? Immediate: Mom, dad and grandma

(28) Have any pets? brantley ((tiny toy poodle)) and precious ((cat))

(29) What's your job: student and full-time pain in the ass

(30) Piercings? my ears

(31) Tattoos? yuck

(32) Obsessions? starbucks.

(33) Addictions? See the answer above

(35) Do you speak another language? spanish.. well.. i passed spanish 3 if that counts

(36) Have a favourite quote?
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away"

 (37) Do you have a webpage? does my journal count?



- - - - -
DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
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(38) Do you live in the moment? 
Of course! Carpe Diem!

(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? depends on who they are

(40) Do you have any secrets? a few

(41) Do you hate yourself? at times. but at the moment, im pretty content

(42) Do you like your handwriting? nope

(43) Do you have any bad habits? biting my nails

(44) What is the compliment you get most from people? lots of people like my hair. i hate it.  

(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? umm.. Raleigh ?

(46) What's your biggest fear? the dark, clowns, dying

(47) Can you sing? only in the shower.

(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? i used to.. but hey, this is me, and if you dont like it--well tuff luck.

(49) Are you a loner? nope. and if i am, im happy this way..

(50) What are your no. 1 priorities in life? faith, friends, love

(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you? of course!

(52) Are you a daredevil? at times

(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? i hate the fact that im always so negative. i'm always putting myself down, and i know that's not kool.

(54) Are you passive or aggressive? well, if i knew what either of those were, i would be able to answer the question.

(55) Have you got a journal? yes.... considering im writing in it? ooo, and i have a journal that i keep in a secret place.. where i write all of my feelings that nobody ever gets to hear.

(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? umm... i guess im a good listener, and friends feel like they can trust me with everything. thats a good thing. i guess my weekness would be my emotions. i've learned to hold them in all of the time.. i guess you could say that only a certain few people know who i really am.  

(57) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? id change myself to be happy with who i am, and stop trying to please so many people all of the time.

(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity. Which is the most important to you? 
love. without love, i dont think i would be here today. love from friends, and the love that jon has given to me.

(59) How do you vent? i write all of my feelings down. and i call sumone ((usually jon or christina))

(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong? well, my emotions are strong -- but i dont think im "emotionally strong".

(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? of course. ive made sum terrible mistakes in the past

(62) Do you think life has been good so far? so far, yes. i have wonderful friends that love me, a wonderful family ((at times)) and a wonderful boyfriend. its all wonderful. hehe.

(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? life goes on-- no matter how bad things are.. the world will never stop turning just because you're hurt.

(64) What do you like the most about your body? my legs

(65) And least? my hips

(66) Do you think you are good looking? on a good day, yes.

(67) Are you confident? Yes

(68) What is the fictional character you're most like? daria

(70) Are you perceived wrongly? usually, yes. most people think im a total bitch.. but thats just beacuse they must have dun sumthing to piss me off-- and ill admit it, when im pissed, im a bitch. sorry guys.

 
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DO YOU...
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(71) Smoke?
No

(72) Do drugs? NO

(73) Read the newspaper? no.

(74) Pray? Every single day, without fail

(75) Go to church? Yes, though not as much as I should

(76) Talk to strangers who IM you? Yeah...people rock!

(77) Sleep with stuffed animals? only the monkey that jon got me in august at the carnival. i love that thing

(78) Take walks in the rain? all the time. me n christina walked in the rain at the beach last weekend

(79) Talk to people even though you hate them? only if we can both be nice to each other.

(80) Drive? only with a licenced operator aged 21 or over ((as stated by my permit))

(81) Like to drive fast? What do you call 'fast'??? of course.. but i get yelled at. fast: over the speed limit.
 
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WOULD OR HAVE YOU EVER...
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(82) Liked your voice?
Yes

(84) Been out of the country? yep. canada and mexico

(85) Eaten something that made other people sick? um. not that i noe of.

(88) Been in love? Yep

(89) Done drugs? no.

(90) Gone skinny dipping? hasnt everybody?

(91) Had a medical emergency? i amost died. does that count?.

(92) Had a surgery? No

(93) Ran away from home? yes

(94) Played strip poker? nope

(95) Gotten beaten up?  No

(96) Beaten someone up?  gotten close. they got the principle involved tho. LAME!

(97) Been picked on?  of course.

(98) Been on stage?  i love to act.

(100) Slept outdoors? hehe last weekend at the beach.

(101) Thought about suicide? a time or two

(102) Pulled an all-nighter? of course

(103) If yes, what is your record? goodness. im not sure.

(104) Gone one day without food? Yeah

(105) Talked on the phone all night? yepp

(107) Slept all day? not ALL day :)

(108) Killed someone? only in my dreams. hehe jk.

(109) Made out with a stranger? no

(111) Thought you're going crazy? im already crazy!

(112) Kissed the same sex?  yes. but not like a.. sexual kiss

(114) Been betrayed? Yes

(115) Had a dream that came true? Yes

(116) Broken the law? no

(117) Met a famous person? Yes

(120) Have you ever killed an animal by accident? No

(121) On purpose? No

(147) Been on radio/tv? Yes

(148) Been in a mosh-pit? YES!

(149) Had a nervous breakdown? yes

(150) Considered religious vocation? what does that mean?

(152) Bungee jumped? kind of. i did that thing at six flags with my cuzin

(153) Had a dream that kept coming back? yea.
 
- - - - -
FAVORITE CLOTHES
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(154) Shoe brand?
i dont have one. im not the kinda girl that likes shoes

(155) Brand of clothing? There's not one particular brand, but I like aeropostale and anything from target!

(156) Cologne/perfume? for boys: fierce ((jons cologne)) for me: secret 33 ((victorias secret)) even tho i dont have any :(

(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work? Whatever I feel like wearing

(158) How about parties? Whatever I feel like wearing

(159) Wear hats? not usually

(160) Judge other people by their clothing? I try not to, but sometimes I do

(161) Wear make-up? not usually. only eyeliner and mascara.. my two best friends :)

(162) Favorite place to shop? target! the mall i guess...

(163) Favorite article of clothing? my levis. what can i say ? im a levi's girl

(164) Are you trendy? no?

(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school? no!
 
- - - - -
BELIEFS
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(166) Believe in life on other planets?
of course.. mercury, venus, mars.. all them

(167) Miracles? yes

(168) Astrology? nope.. but sum of the stuff is so true that its freaky

(169) Magic? ::starts singing:: "do you believe in magic-- in a young girl's heart"

(170) God? YES!

(171) satan? I know he exists but I don't believe IN him

(172) Santa? I used to

(173) Ghosts? no

(174) Luck? yes

(175) Love at first sight? no

(176) Yin and Yang (that good can't exist without the bad)? yes

(177) Witches? No

(178) Easter bunny? No

(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? yes

(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? Yes

(181) Do you wish on stars? Yes...every single time I see one, I make a wish. Corny, but hey, that's just me.
 
- - - - -
DEEP THEOLOGICAL QUESTIONS
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(182) Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?
yes.

(183) Do you think God has a gender? um. i dont noe?

(184) Do you think that science counteracts religion? i think science books try to prove the theory of God to be untrue, but i dont believe the books. only the bible.

(185) Do you believe in organized religion? well, if you mean organized as in going to church and all of that, no. i dont think that going to church makes you any more of a christian and standing in a garage makes you a car. my relationship with gos is between me and him, and me and him ONLY.
(186) Where do you think we go when we die? Heaven or Hell

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AMIGOS
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(187) Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?
no, but my cuzin is gay

(188) Who is your best friend? girl: christina of course. boy:sean

(189) Who's the one person that knows most about you? christina

(190) What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? get over it. lol. and as much as i told them no, im happy they told me to

(191) Your favorite inside joke? at the moment, christina teasing the miggas and me shating in the ocean.

(192) Thing you're picked on most about? im not picked on much anymore, but when i was younger i was a lot heavier.. i got teased a lot about that.

(193) Who's your longest known friend? christina

(194) Newest? dustin, ryan, felicia-- all the people me n chrissy met on the beach

(195) Shyest? i dont think i have any really SHY friends.. that just wouldnt mix well with me cuz im so outgoing.

(196) Funniest? christina

(197) Sweetest? jon

(198) Closest? christina

(199) Weirdest? all of em are weird in their own way

(200) Smartest? jon.

(201) Ditziest? me

(202) Friends you miss being close to the most? all of the people i used to be friends with.. until sumthing happend ((monica, madison, whitney)) all of them.

(203) Last person you talked to online? sean

(204) Who do you talk to most online? sean, sarah, christina, and my cuzin christina

(205) Who are you on the phone with most? christina or jon

(206) Who do you trust most? christina and jon

(207) Who listens to your problems? all of them.. at least they better be listening.

(208) Who do you fight most with? sarah

(209) Who's the nicest? Everyone is nice

(210) Who's the most outgoing? i must say, christina and me

(211) Who's the best singer? none of my friends can sing.

(214) Who's your second family? christinas parents.

(216) Who's the loudest friend? chrissy and me

(217) Do you trust others easily? not usually. it takes a lot to gain my trust. especially lately with all of the trust issues ive had with old friends.

(218) If you could have one single wish granted what would it be?  To be granted a million wishes. hehe im so greedy

(219) Name one person whose arms you feel safe in: jon

(220) Do your friends know you? most of them dont noe hoo i REALLY am.

(221) Friend that lives farthest away: morgan


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LOVE, and all that
- - - - -
(222) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?
no

(225) Do you consider love a mistake? no

(226) What do you find romantic? late-night conversations. love letters. jon coming to see me when im sick on his break at summer school. calling just to say hi. being held in his arms and listening to his heartbeat. soft kisses. his hand brushing my hair out of my face ::sigh:: i really miss my baby right now.

(228) Turn-off? big egos

(229) First kiss? cody baker in kindergarden. shhh, he wont admit it.

(231) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel? im not sure. probably awkward.

(232) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"? well, ive never actually DATED someone, but im sure i would like to know them before i date them..

(233) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out? hey. its like what.. 2004-- it IS socially acceptable

(235) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically handicapped? no
(237) What is best about the opposite sex? how well their personalities fit with ours

(238) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? the fact that since they are guys, they dont like to express emotions as well as girls do.

(248) What's the last present someone gave you? well, the last time i actually got a real present, all wrapped up would be on my birthday..

(257) Are you in love? yes

(258) Do you consider your significant other/ crush hot? of course jons hott. you cant go out with sumone that you arent physically attracted to, as much as people say that its only personality, we all know that if you dont even want to kiss your bf/gf, theres something terribly wrong with that

(264) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk? do sumthing stupid like run into a pole or something.



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WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
- - - - -
(279) That haunted you?
i dont think ive ever been haunted.

(280) You wanted to kill? anonomous. ((sp?))

(281) That you laughed at? sean

(282) That laughed at you?  christina. cuz my plane got cancelled tonight.

(284) You went shopping with? sarah
.
(285) That broke your heart? jon

(286) To disappoint you? too many people

(287) To ask you out? well, andrew, since this time, jon made me ask him out . its a long story. when we broke up, he saw how hurt i was, and he made me promise that if he ever wanted to go back out with me, i had to say no. so to avoid breaking my promise, i had to ask him out.

(288) To make you cry? the people at the airport for cancelling my plane, therefore making me miss my lay-over in ohio, making me not get to st. louis tonight :(

(289) To brighten up your day? jon

(290) That you thought about? jon. you think about the person when you write their name. hehe

(291) You saw a movie with? jon and sean. we saw harry potter last night

(292) You talked to on the phone? jon

(293) You talked to through AIM/ICQ? sean

(294) You saw? my mom

(295) You let go/lost? old friends.
 
- - - - -
RIGHT THIS MOMENT...

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(337) Are you going out?
no.. its like.. almost midnight

(338) Will it be with your significant other? if i was going out, i wish jon would come too.

(339) Or some random person? IM NOT GOING OUT!

(340) What are you wearing right now? sweat-pants and a tank-top

(341) Body part you're touching right now: im not touching my body.. im typing

(342) What are you worried about right now? Nothing

(343) What book are you reading? i hate reading. does that answer the question?

(344) What's on your mousepad? taz. moms obsessed.

(345) Use 6 words to describe how you're feeling:  "Extremely aggravated because of this survey"-- its too long.

(346) Are you bored? Yes

(347) Are you tired? Yes

(348) Are you talking to anyone online? yes

(349) Are you talking to anyone on the phone? No

(350) Are you lonely or content? I'm content

(351) Are you listening to music?yes

(352) What are you getting ready to do? Finish this survey, then go to bed and wait for jon to call

(353) Is this survey fun? no

(354) Really? Yes

(355) This is the end. Glad it's over? YES!

u            s
h            g            &
k         xoxo         z
i                s
s

t
here are only two times

I
  want  to   be  with  you
n
ow and forever

.
. .Raleigh and Jon. . .
©


Posted at 11:15 pm by brokendreamz
PaRtIr M'aImE  

i leave today. yay.

yay. i leave for illinois today. that means i wont be writing in here for two whole weeks. unless they have the computers going at our camp. hoo noes.. they might. yes i know, all of my faithful readers will miss me dearly. well, i will miss you guys too. lol.

much love. raleigh

u            s
h            g            &
k         xoxo         z
i                s
s

t
here are only two times

I
  want  to   be  with  you
n
ow and forever

.
. .Raleigh and Jon. . .
©


Posted at 02:41 pm by brokendreamz
MoN aMoUr (1)  

Thursday, June 10, 2004
shop till i drop ?

you bet i did!

well, today was pretty good i'd say. i woke up around .. 11 or so, and then jon came over on his lunch break for a little while. we just sat around and watched tv-- the usual. when he left i had to hurry and get ready, and then around.. 12:15 or so, sarah and her mom came n picked me up. her mom dropped us off at Rosa's to eat ((sadly, jennifer wasnt working)) and then we walked over to the target parking lot and went ShOpPiNg!

we went to marshalls first, and i found the most ADOREABLE skirt in the whole wide world for umm. 10$ i think. im soooooo happy! its black, white, gray, pink, and a little green. yes, i know it sounds rather odd when i describe it, but trust me.. its much cuter when you actually see it. then i got a pair of hot pink flip flops w/ the little heel on the back. i used to hate them, but when i saw these shoes, i about DIED!

after that, we went into sally's for a few mintues.. sarah asked me if she should go blonde, but we all know that that is a major NO! then we went over to bath n body works so i could google over the lotion that im in LOVE with. decided i better not buy anything there tho -- im SUPPOSED to be saving my money for illinois ((i leave friday))

next stop : target. i found a cute black shirt to go with my new skirt, and then i bought the purse that ive been wanting for like.. EVER! its exactly like christinas, but instead of saying "id rather be dancing", it says "swim near a lifeguard" and its orange and canvas color instead of pink n green like chrissys. tried on a bunch of shoes.. sarah made me try to walk in stilettos-- lets just say i dont think i'll ever be a run-way model-- i almost fall with every step i take in those damn things. ick. got starbucks on the way out of target. i finally tried the new strawberries and creme frappachino ((sp?)) and i LOVE it!! i got a chocolate drizzle on top, and i think that made it taste even better.. but yes, that is now my new favorite drink from starbucks. yummy.

went over to famous footwear and we tried on billions of shoes.. found sum really kute pink n black converse that i want.. but they are 40$ and i didnt feel like spending bunches of money before i go on vacation -- o well, maybe i'll get them before skool starts. they had a bunch of shoes for prom or sumthin.. and lots of them were really cute.. but nah.. "banquet" season isnt until .. like a year away. went to payless next. fell in love with a pair of clear flip-flops w/ the heel. ugh. oh well.. maybe when i come home from illinois i'll get them.

on the way home after i dropped sarah off ((yes, i was driving)) grandma told me that she talked to my aunt.. and I GET TO GO TO CAMP!! i wasnt supposed to go this year because my aunt said that it was going to be too expensive to send me n steph ((my cuzin)) but grandma talked her into it. YES !! im sooo excited now.. cuz i LOVE that camp. woohoo.

well, i think im gonna go now. im really tired and jon just called. wow, he has good timing. much love. raleigh

u            s
h            g            &
k         xoxo         z
i                s
s

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here are only two times

I
  want  to   be  with  you
n
ow and forever

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. .Raleigh and Jon. . .
©


Posted at 10:29 am by brokendreamz
PaRtIr M'aImE  

Wednesday, June 09, 2004
sunkissed and red

wow, its been awhile again. i just keep finding it harder and harder to update this thing. anyways, i got back in town on tuesday night. the beach was AWESOME! first time ive ever been to the beach, and i must say, it was quite an experience. while my dad and cindy ((his bitchy girlfriend)) stayed in a hotel, me n christina camped on the beach with david ((Dads friend)) lets just say that next time i go to the beach, ill be staying in a hotel.. while we were in the tent it was just.. odd. sand got in my suitcase and in my clothes and just EVERYWHERE!! anyways, we have TONS of new insiders.. its KrAzEe...

InSiDeRz
-chrissy stop teasing the miggas
-i shat in the ocean!
-TATERZ !!!
-HIGH-C!
-who has crabs? I HAVE CRABS ! david's are HUGE !
-raleigh: next time you flip me off, use all five fingers
ryan: why would i flip you off with 5 finagers?
christina: damnit raleigh.. you messed that up
raleigh: i did? o wait.. .
raleigh: next time you wave at me, use all 5 fingers
christina: yea .. you killed it
-HmMm .. it smells kinda funny in here
-tin-foil pipe
-grandma's trippin out.. shes TRIPPIN OUT!
-boy 1: will you ladies have the honor of holding his shorts?
us: of course!
boy 2: ::walk walk walk:: can i have my pants back?
us: OMG HE' S WEARING A SPEEDO!
-ick. you know hoo that smells like.. FISH!
-damn we look soooo good in skirts that i think the wind wants to see up them...
-dontcha just hate it when people listen in on your convos about your skirt flying up coughcharliecough

the only really BAD thing that happened was the fact that now me n chrissy are both terribly sunburned.. and bubbly ((the blisters from the burn)) and i must say that it hurts like no other. i have to keep putting aloe vera stuff on it, and i can barely wear a shirt or anything -- ive been wearing a tube-top for like.. 2 days strait, and the hot water of a shower is just unbearable. oh well, i think it was soooo worth it to go to the beach . . even if the water does put salt in your eyes. :)

well, jon just called so im going to go talk to my baby :)

much love. raleigh

u            s
h            g            &
k         xoxo         z
i                s
s

t
here are only two times

I
  want  to   be  with  you
n
ow and forever

.
. .Raleigh and Jon. . .
©


Posted at 11:17 pm by brokendreamz
PaRtIr M'aImE  

Friday, June 04, 2004
duuuuude

1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don't bold is false

01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms
04. I love sleeping
05. I have loads of books
06. I once slept in a bathroom
07. I love playing video games
08. I adore marijuana
09. I watch porn movies
10. I watch them with my father
11. I like sharks
12. I love spiders, I think they're adorable, especially the ones with bright colors on their backs
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair
14. I like G. Bush
15. People are cool.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche
18. I have a lot to learn
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself
20. I'm really really smart
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret[and im not telling!]
23. I hate snow
24. I treat my cell phone like its my left kidney
25. Punk rock rules
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food
28. I would hate to be famous
29. I am not a morning person
30. I wear glasses
31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses
32. I have potential
33. I'm pure Japanese
34. My legs are two different sizes
35. I have a twin
36. I wear a padded bra sometimes
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing
38. I'm left-handed
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them
40. I don't like horror movies
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway
42. People hate me usually.
43. I love pop music
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight
45. I hate parking fines
46. I know national anthem of my country by heart
47. I know more than two languages
48. I spend too much time on the computer
49. I often want to throw the computer out a window
50. I live on a ground floor
51. I don't like chocolate
52. I'd like to be more original
53. I've lied
54. Cocks are my favorite birds AHAAHHAHAHAHA
55. I want to conquer the world
56. I wonder what happens when you die
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter
58. Eat your dog!
59. I love to exercise.
60. I hate chemistry with a passion
61. I love to write
62. I like changes
63. I hate going to class
64. I am afraid to die
65. I hate dish washing
66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly
67. My nails are nine inch long
68. My favorite color is black
69. I like to sleep on the floor (sometimes)
70. I am hopeless at cooking
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little.

72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this
73. I am online a lot, but not in MSN

74. I hate government
75. I don't have a girlfriend/boyfriend
76. I'm too nice for my own good
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can.
78. I don't trust newspapers
79. I like debating
80. I live in a wagon
81. I clean my room once a month
82. I have a third eye
83. I love Mozambique
84. I'm scared of american fast food
8
5. I don't trust any religion
86. I used to play with barbies only because all the other girls were doing it
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little.
88. I like listening to wind chimes
89. I'm very disorganized
90. My hair is long and straight
91. I earn a lot
92. I don't like spicy food (not much neway)
93. I keep a diary
94. I can't do cartwheels
95. I am very lazy.
96. I'm sarcastic
97. I think my hair is annoying
98. I'm very sensitive
99. I love being "abnormal"
100. My left eye is violet and my right eye is a light blue

Posted at 11:51 pm by brokendreamz
MoN aMoUr (1)  

most definately not in a good mood

well, i definately didnt have the best day in the world.. or rather should i say, IT SUCKED BIG BALLS!

rarr, i woke up about 9 or 9:30 cuz i didnt take any med. before i went to bed, so i didnt sleep very well. watched my talk shows till 11:15 and then called jon cuz he gets out for lunch ((atsummer skool)) at 11:15. anyways, he came over for a little while and we talked about tonight cuz i told him i REALLY wanted to spend some time with him before i go out of town ((beach for a few days, then illinois for 2 weeks)) and turns out, he had already made plans with brian. well yea, i threw a big fit about it but didnt change his mind ((damnit!)) but he PROMISED me that we would do sumthin 2morrow.. so were gonna go see Van Helsing at 1:15 and then go n chill at the mall for a little "quality time". im really excited.. i mean, the last time we actually had sum "alone time" was a long long time ago.. soo yea, i cant wait!! after jon left and grandma got home, i went to the doctor to see what on earth is wrong with me. i feel like im going to die! saw sarah n her mom and rachel there.. pretty interesting. anyways, im on two different medicines.. 3 now including my face stuff she gave me.. soo yea and i think all this medicine is making me go crazy.. cuz i definately dont feel like myself-- i feel extremely depressed today, and thats just not the kind of person i am.

ron ((oreys dad)) came and put in my new fan for me today. yay! its white instead of my old, nasty brown one, and OMG THIS ONE HAS A REMOTE CONTROL!!! how uber-rad is that?! hehe so i layed around and tested that for a while and then grandma came in to tell me that im not going to my creative writing camp that ive been going to for the past 3 years. RARR! im sooo pissed about that -- my uncle called her and told her that it was going to be too expensive for me and my cuzin ((steph)) to go this year and grandma didnt even argue with him, even tho grandma is the one paying for it. ugh, im just so pissed.. i was looking forward to that sooooo bad-- and now i dont get to see my friend morgan. shes soo awesome, but i only get to see her once a year of course cuz she lives in illinois and yea.. its too far for us to drive n see each other. so yea, im PISSED at my family now.

well, im going to go take a nice hot bubble bath and hope it relieves at least a little bit of the stress ive got today -- and wait for my medicine to kick in and make me feel better :(

much love. raleigh.

u            s
h            g            &
k         xoxo         z
i                s
s

t
here are only two times

I
  want  to   be  with  you
n
ow and forever

.
. .Raleigh and Jon. . .
©


Posted at 11:46 pm by brokendreamz
PaRtIr M'aImE  

.::cHrIsSy *n* Da HiZzOuSe::.

                                         .::iLOVEraleigh::.

               btw: this is is chrissy. just in case you were wondering! lol. im writing in here b/c i love raleigh cuz she is my bestest bud. and yea. she is GREAT! well, anyways im going to tell you about raleighs day, well she woke up around 9..feeling kinda like..well poo. so she told her granny to take her to the doctor and so she went. she has a ear infection. yup sux for her. well anyways me and rah were on the fone all day. it was fun. i love talking to her..dont you? i know you do. OK so..moving on.....

            Rah had a rough day..her and jon had a lil "fight" but its ok..b/c boys are gay like that..and i support raleigh 100 % and..she doesnt feel good to top it off. (( no good )) WELL one thing that will indeed make her feel better is that we are goin to da beach this weekend until tuesday. HELLS YEA! lol well anyways. im going to go..cuz i need to go write in MY blogie wogie!! (( sorry..i got a lil mushy gushy..AH i did it again!! ))

OK..bye!!

<3..chrissy.. ( being raleigh )

Posted at 08:10 pm by brokendreamz
PaRtIr M'aImE  


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